18's LAST MINUTES AND QUESTIONS

Here I am waiting for the new day to come. Waiting for a new year for me to come.
This makes me sick, knowing that I have a lot of academic stuff to do including examinations and productions.
I miss high school days especially the 14th of every August when my friends and I come to my place and celebrate my day with my fave foods served by my mom and Ate Rosie.

But college is different.
You celebrate birthday alone.
Well, thanks to your friends who make you happier on that day.
I have been thinking these past few days about my future, about the coming more birthdays to come, if God permits me to, about a lot of options that may come my way upon graduation.
On how am I going to celebrate my debut on 2013, and will I be earning on my own on that year or I am still pursuing a higher degree? Questions... questions.

Anyway, in a few minutes, I will enter my last year of being a teenager- which makes me more sad about the fact that I have not enjoyed yet my teenage life.
Well, how do you define happiness? Well, that's another question.
All I know is that I have done a lot of things that teenagers of present generation have already done, supposedly, except drugs. Well, as people say, it is the experimental phase in life wherein you delve on things which you think serve as adventures.
BUT, have I really been happy all these teenage years? Questions... questions.


Looking at my clock, I am left with 34 minutes until I become 19.
I still do not have a concrete plans on how to celebrate it.
Go to Katipunan and review for BA 101's midterms?
Go out with friends and continue what i am used to since elementary and that's celebrating my birthday with them and eating my favorite food?
Lock myself in the room and do all my assignments?
Shoot for my BC 148 production?
OR just go home in Pangasinan at home where my heart is, and spend the remaining hours of that first day of me being 19 with my dad, mom, and sister?
QUESTIONS...QUESTIONS...