Feelings when you do not blog

It has been a long time- five months to be exact, since the last time I posted here on my blog. Then upon waking up this morning I just realized that I have been so selfish about some of my thoughts because I am not sharing them to anyone such as to the readers of my blog.

There are feelings that a blogger feels when he or she is not blogging, according to my self-centered monitoring scheme. Such feelings include sadness. A blogger feels sad whenever he has an idea that he should have blogged but he didn't. Sadness, due to the fact that he cannot share his ideas to his readers. There is this scenario that when a blogger feels an urge to post something and because he cannot do so he feels exhausted and sad all at the same time. Blogging is like an extension of one's self already and that even a single and short post can put a smile to a blogger's face already.

I don't know if this is also felt by some blogger because as of now this is what I am feeling. Sadness due to inability to blog anymore due to time constraint. Other social media platform such as Facebook and the micro blogging site Twitter serve as a blogger's resort when he or she cannot blog.

What other feelings do you feel when you do not blog? Share it here now.

Hello Teacher

I started teaching today and I enjoyed it. Teaching has been my secret career when I was much younger. I taught my cousins secretly in our study room and I even created visual aids for them.

Years have passed and I have real srudents now, and this thought still excites me.

Being invited to teach in a school known for 100 percent passing in CPA boards is an honor for me. I thank God because He gave me another avenue to glorify His name.

Driving to and from the school where I teach is tiring but knowing that there are students who need to be shared with knowledge plus the fact that it also is a way of glorifying the name of the Lord, is all worth it.

F5 then Shut Down

This time, I believe is the right time to refresh and reflect. I have been working for this job for almost a month now. My relationship with my job is like a romantic relationship's on-off status. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I don't but most of the time I am searching for ways to relive that love I used to feel for this career. I am not ranting, it's just that I can't handle the pressure anymore. So I am trying to refresh everything and praying that everything will be back to its proper pacing, just like before. This is somehow connected to my blog post prior to this.


I just want to get this over and done with. So I have to hit that F5 button before shutting down this career.  

Sablay

In UP, sablay is a symbol of graduation and honor. Hence, the reason why UP graduates wear this on their graduation day. But in real world, sablay is what you should avoid because it will or it might jeopardize everything.


 I am a fresh graduate from UP and is now working. At work, I often experience committing sablay. This mess creates an impression to my officemates about me and how I perform my duties and responsibilities. Maybe, just maybe, these mistakes are manifestations that I am not really learning my obligations. I believe that I have been in this agency for too long and that they are expecting me to have learn already my lessons, but what's wrong with me? Or is it about me or them?


Whenever we commit sablay, we often look for something or someone to blame for our mistake. This is an excuse to delve on the genuine reason why we have these sablays or why we commit them over and over again. I already know my reason, I just do not want it published. It's somehow personal and I have nothing to blame but myself.


So if you're a fresh grad and new on your job or at least have been doing that job since after graduation, I must commend you if you haven't experienced committing your own sablay yet. 


I think that sometimes it's about other people and not me, but if you will look at the bigger picture, it will only boil down to me- the person who does the work, the duties, and taking care of their tasks. I cannot find the purpose of this blog entry anymore, maybe this is just how I am feeling and thinking right now- so lost with all these sablays.   

First day on the last day

Today marks the last day of May. The end of summer for most people, specially the students. But this day marks the start of my career in digital marketing. The beginning of my independence. Finally, I am in the real world. I promise to be a good media practitioner, and a responsible netizen.

So this is Am. Idol Season 11

I just watched anepisode now, a replay it was. The episode was on the performances of the top 4. Watching this made me realize why Filipinos adore Jessica Sanchez. She was just fantastic. Her performances were amazing and unbelievable. Unlike her competitors, she can adjust her vocals from low to high, or mix it as well. I think that there's really a compatition on among these three Idols.

Clutter

I just realized that there are a lot of clutter in my life right now. Clutter which serves as problems which hinder me to be in my maximum potential. How do you manage these hindrances? I also do not know. Maybe prayers  will help. I will seek solutions to these clutters the soonest. All I need to do now is to face these challenges, one step at a time.

Catching up

There are so many things to write about and to blog about here, albeit I find the time as a blocking body that inhibits me to blog, or maybe it’s just me who does not find time to blog and to share various experiences.  I’ve been inactive in the blogging sphere for almost two months already. Well, I have reasons which range from academics to personal. I was very busy finishing my thesis and doing so many projects, and taking exams in the previous months. What makes me busy now is job hunting. I should’ve written all my experiences from various interviews and exams from different companies and from bunch of industries. I have a lot of interesting stories to share, but I guess those narratives are reserved for upcoming pages here.

Academics. I was very busy perusing piles of reading materials for my classes last semester, particularly for my thesis. It must admit that doing thesis is problematic when you have different perspective in your initial proposal to the time you finish your final draft. Exams were suicidal when productions and written exams collide in a week- this means that you have to write script, shoot you video materials, and edit your footages, and then you have to read and review for another exam. Imagine this cycle in just one night. Yes, in just one sleepless night. To those who are belittling my course, the hell with you. This seems easy for you, but heck my school is UP Mass Comm and we experience doing these things over and over again.

Personal. This category should have been sorted from extracurricular activities to more personal activities, or not. I am currently the Master Councilor of DeMolay Pangasinan and I have to manage our organization to meet our objectives for this term. We have to do projects, meet, and drink- the last one is optional. Aside from this, I have this more personal sphere of my life, which covers my love life and my family life. I wanted to spend more time here, but due to some constraints such as the academics, what I want is usually not met. So I have to make time for those missed times with Lyle and family.

Job hunting. I have a DeMolay brother who called me one night and asked if I am already employed. This is because his sister who happen to graduate cum Laude, too with a degree in Tourism is not yet hired. I told him that I am just waiting for calls. He was worried that even Laudes in the premiere university in the country is not automatically hired. I told him that maybe it was before, but now with more competitive graduates but less job openings, the only edge that UP graduates have is their ideologies and independence, and these things are not absorbed in school rather these are learned in the process of learning while in school.

My series of fortunate events in job hunting will be shared later here. I have to prepare to go in UP, and this time to get my graduation photos. Ask me who’s excited to get these documents- of course, my parents. The story of my graduation will also be told here, but I guess not now. Chao!