Screamed with my Girlfriend

It's our third movie together. Our second movie in Trinoma.

I did not really scream but the movie was Scream 4. I really do not know why i chose that film, but maybe I do not want to watch a romantic movie because we are already romantic. So this time we watched a suspense-horror film.

At first Lyle suggested to just be in one place and just talk about our lives but I thought that our private sphere might be intruded when I wanted to be just the two of us together. I know, I know, movie houses are public places, too but I always find such place a private place. Just like when I feel so knocked out with a problem and pressured by school works, I often go to movie houses to relax and to just be me with me. 

Anyway, I always find myself in much comfort when I am with Lyle. I love her. 

Paraan

Isang mensahe ng pagka-abala. Nag-abalang mag-blog sa gitna ng nag-gigitgitang mga iskedyul ng exam at mahahabang readings na dapat ay kasalukyan ko nang binabasa.

Love Diary 3

I got jealous in this post. Really jealous. HAHA

Monday, August 30, 2010
6:59 PM

Hindi ko alam kung inlove na nga ba ako sa kanya pero feeling ko, feeling ko lang naman talaga ah, inlove siya sa akin at ayaw niya lang aminin dahil magkakagulo daw.

He's fine naman eh…he's sporty and all the manly stuff pero hindi nga lang siya Upian.
Well, he looks okay naman, he's a little bit of harry and aldrin and ron I guess. Haha he's victor. Hahaha

Hindi ko nga lang alam kung hanggang saan kami magtatagal sa ganitong set-up…kapag siguro umamin na siyang gusto niya na ako eh okay na, magtitiis na kami. Haha matiyaga naman tong isa magtext and all the stuff…hindi nga lang siya matiyagang puntahan ako. Malayo daw. Abnormal.

Hmmm, he likes my smile sabi niya ang cute ko daw nung Saturday at kamukha ko daw si Lovi Poe. Para
lyle edryl dela cruz: ng adik lang kasi ang layo naman kaya ng ichura ko dun, ang ganda ganda nun eh! Hello???

I don’t know if im willing to risk everything for this to work out again. I don’t even know if im already ready to fall in love again. Its been quite awhile since ive been inlove but I just don’t know if I want to be inlove pa ulit ever.

Hindi ko pa ulit nakikita si aldrin ni nakakausap pa man di ulit. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung kamusta na siya and stuff pero bahala na lang kung kelan na lang ako ulit magkakaroon ng pagkakataon na makausap siya o makita o makatext siya e di dun na lang.

Hanggang ngayon wala pa rin akong sagot sa mga bagay bagay, hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin alam kung paano na ako pagdating ng december…don’t you think it’s a little bit too early for me to move forward or is
lyle edryl dela cruz: it too late na that I just have to linger on what's left and what happened kasi dun na ako nasanay??? Well I think it’s the perfect timing for change.

 I love myself, I loved aldrin….and I am ready to love someone else not him again.

Love Diary 2

I admit, I wasn't paying attention to this entry when i first read it since nagbabasa ako ng ibang post at nabigla ako nang may mabasang "bading" akala ko Lyle is accusing me of being gay dahil iniwan ko siya or what. HAHAHA. Sir Felipe pala yung sinasabi niya. 


Sa kanya-mymp

Sunday, June 27, 2010
11:37 PM

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

Sabi sa akin ni tin inaaraw araw ko na daw yung pageemote .anung mgagawa ko eh ganito nga haha buti nga nandyan si tin eh may napagsasabihan ako.

Galing kami kanina na usc sa pride parade. Nakakaloka hindi ko naman alam na ganun at ang catch eh nakita ko si sir felipe dun!!!! Nakakaloka. Hahah bading nga siya. As in bading. Kakashock.

I still believe someday you and me.

Love Diary 1

My girlfriend Lyle keeps this diary where she writes her emotions into. Tonight she sent me this to read since she said that I need not to read her blog and read these notes of her instead. I love her so much. 


This is one of her notes. And I feel bad about myself after reading this. I've been really really bad to my girl. She doesn't know that when she wrote this, she was also on my mind- me being afraid to involve myself in a long distance relationship. But now, I am more mature than before and that love will not keep us apart from being a couple. 


Monday, June 21, 2010
10:44 PM

Pero araw-araw pa rin kitang iniisip. Araw-araw ko pa rin iniisip kung naalala mo ako. Araw-araw kong iniisip kung babalik ka pa ba. Araw-araw mo akong pinapahirapan pero ayus lang. I deserve this. Nakakapagod na sa totoo lang.

When will I be happy again… para akong sinumpa alam mo yun ha dinong??? Kaya mabuti pang may ginagawa ako para hindi na kita masyadong naalala eh. Hindi ko alam pero puro masayang alaala na lang yung naalala ko every time. Ganun ba talaga kapag tumatanda na? I am enjoying my single life pero I am scared na baka mawili na ako dito..natatakot ako na baka kakaisip ko sayo eh makalimutan ko ng may iba pang nandyan maliban sayo aldrin. My gosh. When will I see you again so that I may slap your face and say how much this hurts, that is if I can put this into words. I hate waiting for something that I am aware naman na will never come na. I hate waiting for your text everyday. I hate waiting for your friend request every time I open my facebook account. I hate seeing your face. I hate this aldrin. I would love to have you back into my life but I don’t think so that that will ever happen again and I hate you for that. I hate you. YOU. I hate myself. MYSELF. Two different entities. Two different bodies that were once one.

I hated you ever since this happened. I hated you for making me happy and then leaving all alone there at space, I hated you for everything that I regret before. I hate myself now and I simply hate you because you wont even talk to me. your mean. The meanest boy I've ever been in love
lyle edryl dela cruz: If you will just reply to my text messages I will really ask you this "what happened to us?we were almost there" but I just cant take your messages that curse me whenever I do that…so  I wont hurt myself na and just keep my thoughts to myself. I will just wait for the time that I will meet you again and hopefully I will have the courage to smile and I hope that I will see you smiling back at me.

I hate the moments like this one. I want to cry but I cant because people will see me crying and they will ask me why. I don’t want to explain myself anymore. I don’t want to pretend as if I am okay pa rin. I don’t want to… I never wanted to lose you. I am not prepared. Gosh.

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Ewan ko sayo. Hindi ko alam. Siguro mas mabuting hindi ko na lang tanungin. Siguro mas mabuting hindi ko na lang alam ang sagot. Tama hindi ko pipindutin ang keypad ng cellphone ko. Sana yung susunod na entry ko eh hindi na tungkol sayo. Ayoko na. hay

Mahal naman ako nila mama, alam kong kahit maldita ako eh marami pa rin namang nagmamahal sa akin. Buti na lang matino pa ako eh panu na kung wala na ako sa hulog tapos naalala pa kita madalas e di ang labas ko na nito eh lukaret diba? Pero may kulang pa rin kahit alam kong mahal nila ako. Marami na akong pagkukulang kay Lord… yun na siguro yun. Bahala na. basta ang alam ko aldrin ayoko na. I love you palaka.

Reyna ng aming pamilya

Kayang-kaya kong tiisin ang init, ang haba, at ang pagkabagot sa byahe makasama lang kita sa Araw ng mga Ina. Wala namang espesyal sa araw na yun dahil sa tuwing naalala at nakakasama kita, special na yun. Happy Hero's Day mommy. Mahal ka namin nila daddy, ate Frelyn, at Mia.

Larawang de maskara

Ayaw kong maniwala sa ganda ng mga edited na larawan. Dapat hindi na photographer ang tawag sa mga taong mahilig mag-edit ng mga photos imbis na ipakita ang tunay na galing nila sa potograpiya, dapat editor na lang kung puro edit lang din gagawin nila sa larawan. Or, is it a way of masking their "talent" sa photography?

I shall return

I wonder if I can still transfer to another dorm. I mean, I've been to Yakal last year and the memories I have had there are quit memorable though I wanted to have a focus in my academics and I think I can't have that in Yakal. Or who knows. I am thankful I've been accepted in a dormitory inside the campus.